Recently someone said to me that they “did not agree with everything I said but..” When I heard this I suddenly realized that it didn’t matter to me if someone did not agree with everything I say or believe. In fact I realized that it didn’t matter to me if they disagreed with everything I ever said to them.

How can this be? I thought to myself. I used to think it mattered a great deal and I wanted everyone to agree with me, and see things the way I saw them. I would spend hours in long involved discussions trying to get people to see things the way I saw them. Was it because I felt that I was right and they, (poor misguided souls,) were wrong? Maybe; but more than likely it was because I hoped I was right and the more people I could get to agree with me the better I felt.

Everyone has a unique point of view and it would be quite impossible to find someone who truly saw things the way you did. You might find people who somewhat agree with a lot of what you say and do, but no two people will agree on everything. To expect or need or want that is unrealistic.

If you find someone you really like and you have a lot of things in common, and you agree on the important things, there is no reason to pick apart the relationship over the small things or little differences of opinions. What is more important is the relationship, not the opinions. Opinions come and go and change. The person is important. The person should be held as the most important thing in the relationship and being right is not worth the damage it could cause trying to prove it.

Trying to grasp the nature of reality in a scientific manner by looking at particles and waves seems complicated and confusing. There are people writing theories and mathematical formulas for energy exchanges and when I start to read that stuff I get brain fog. All the while a little voice inside me is says, “don’t waste your time on that, there or better things to spend your time on.”

A lot of information was required to create the illusion of a 3 dimensional time space universe, but why should I spend my life trying to unravel the mystery of how it was accomplished? In the face of infinity, I bet you could accomplish anything. (I enjoy using the computer but I don’t need to know exactly how it works. ) Let someone else be in charge of all that information, I have other things to do and learn.

After skimming the material however, I have decided that the universe is a dream-like, holographic-like mind created virtual reality. We all live in either a dream world or some sort of holodeck-type incubator. We are fragments of the one conscious body each with our own awareness, and we are all connected to that body. We are atoms in the body of God. Perhaps we are just elusive particles popping in and out of existence.

Its getting really late and I am slipping into la la land. I will say goodnight. The time is 2:59 a.m. You can disregard the time on the post. I have not figured out how to set that thing to the right time yet.

I have given the matter some thought lately, and I am not at all intent on attracting a man into my life for the traditional purposes of living “happily ever after.” My primary goal is generally to live an abundant, joyful and creative life, and I would like to attract people, men or women, who radiate love,  joy and creative energy.  But as far and my going on a “man hunt” I find that to be a rather silly idea.

I am not apposed to having a man in my life. You might laugh at that statement, but it is a positive step for me, who just a few weeks ago was determined to avoid a relationship with any man at all costs. How silly of me. What was I thinking. Such prejudice on my part.

I have changed my attitude towards men in general and have dropped my protective armor. I no longer fear men, nor do I hold any grudge or ill will against them. It is silly to judge all men because of past experience.  I live in the present moment now.

Men, are spiritual beings just as women are. The difference between men and woman have to do with the opposite poles of masculine and feminine energies. I should not expect them to be the same as me, or to understand me as a woman. At the same time, I can imagine what it might be like to be a man. They have a completely different set of challenges. I guess that’s what makes them so  interesting.

Do older woman really want to get involved in a relationship with a man? If so, why? Don’t male-female relationships tend to complicate most people’s lives or is that just something I believe because of what I experienced? Do we believe things because of our experiences or do we experience things because of our beliefs? Did the chicken come first, or was it the egg?

I have been questioning my own reasons for running from the idea of having any man in my life. Marriage seems to be too restrictive. Besides, it is still a contract between a man, a woman and the STATE. It has been my belief that most relationships between a man and a woman deteriorate to master-slave status inside of six months (or less.)

I gave up on any kind of relationship because I find it hard to believe that the “right” man (for me) even exists. If he does, what kind of man would he be? Let me imagine him.

He would be a man who loves his independence and would not want to be owned or to own anyone else. He would be more passionate about spiritual enlightenment than getting laid. He would be a focused happy confident person with integrity. He would know about the law of attraction and he would live by it, attracting health, wealth and abundance. He would truly know the difference between “being in love” and divine love. He would be fresh and fun and passionate. He would of course, worship the ground I walked on. He would be fun to be with but he would never smother me, take me for granted or boss me. He would be interesting, adventurous, considerate, and have good manners. Mostly he would be real and confident and he would act with love towards all.

In order to attract such a man, I would have to transform myself into the same type of person ~as like attracts like. That seems simple enough. It might prove an interesting experiment.

I don’t really feel lonely or that I need a man in my life. I am very happy with my life. Perhaps I should change my belief that the “right man” for me does not exist. I am now quite sure he does exist. I have heard that if you can imagine something, it must exist.

I have been reading the ebook “How to Be Irresistible to Men” in order to evaluate the product to see if I wanted to offer it for sale on my website and it has caused me to examine my own reasons for being so anti-relationship. It had been my intention to test the product’s effectiveness. As I read it, I realized that it did go well with the theme of my site which is about personal transformation. Then I realized that the techniques in the book might actually work. Before going any further, I had to stop and think about it. Do I really want to attract a man? Well, maybe…. but only the “right” man. Is that possible? Does he really exist? Could I really attract him? Well, I guess we shall see what happens… stay tuned in for the details.

You probably can’t tell how much I have changed by looking at me. I look the same. I would like to look better, and to reflect the positive changes that are going on within me and perhaps that will come.

I am just so busy lately with what I am doing and learning. I have my attention in too many places at once I think. The change in me is on the inside and it is a rapid change. It could be the result of the new things and places I am putting my attention on. It’s a good thing.

It feels a lot better to be learning about the Internet business opportunities an how to make better web sites than chasing conspiracy theories, railing about the state of government affairs, hanging out in forums and social networks, or looking for alien space ships. They are not part of my reality any more. I’m not interested in their creations.

I have more energy than I have had in a long time and seem to be going constantly. Sometimes I am up all night working on the computer. That is when no one bothers me and I can get some real work done. (Perhaps I really need to get more rest. I can’t utilize my perfect wave posters if I don’t sleep on them. )

Why Wait?

How many times today have you found yourself waiting? Do you know someone who always has you waiting for them? We wait for things to get better, for interest rates to go down, for people to change. We put off doing things while waiting for better weather, better health, or until we have more energy or more money. We wait to be happy, we wait to start on that new business.

We think to ourselves “I will start after the holiday when all this craziness is over. I will wait until I feel better later, after I get my house cleaned up. I will wait until I am alone before  I can truly relax. I will wait for my children to get back on their feet before I do anything else with the rest of my life”

(I would like a new wardrobe but I am waiting until I loose a few dress sizes and then I will wait until I have enough money.)

Waiting is a trap that can steal our lives, our time and the moments away from us when we could have been feeling joy, love or appreciation. Waiting stops us in our tracks when we should be creating something in our lives. If we are always waiting, when shall we live? When shall we be happy and relaxed? When shall we do something if we are waiting for the right condition or situation?

(Suddenly the phone rings. It is a friend of mine. She puts me on hold. Here I am again, waiting.)

Addictions

You have seen news about the war on drugs, the war on fat, the war against cigarettes, and that too much of this and not enough of that is bad for you. But how much and how often do you hear from the major media about the dangers of sugar? Not much. Sugar is big business in this country. Yet it has been proven in double blind tests that sugar is addictive, but have you heard about this on the nightly news? Of course not. That would be stepping on too many toes. Too many people would be out of work if people stopped using all the sugar. We are surrounded by it. We are addicted to it.

It has become clear to me that to get to where I want to be as fast as possible, I will have to address the problem of my addition to sugar. I want the fountain of youth, health, and energy. The order has come from the council, to kick this addiction. So I began today. (And I already have a headache.) A book you might find interesting is called “Sugar Shock.” You can get it with one click at Amazon.com.  I buy all my books there.

Sugar Shock!: How Sweets and Simple Carbs Can Derail Your Life– and How YouCan Get Back on Track

Even as I write this some of my personalities are wondering if I can kick this addiction. To them I say, “Quit whining. Sugar is now a controlled substance in this reality. we seek the Holy Grail. Sugar is not it.”

Every woman knows the meaning of a “bad hair day.” Its not just about hair, but that seems to be where the problem begins. Your hair is doing its own thing, your gray or some other color is showing at your roots, there’s no bounce, no body. Your hair is electric, standing on end, waving to every passer by. You put on your hat to go out in public but that does not help much. You have put off spending time fussing with your hair for a week because there are so many other priorities. The bad hair day continues. Its time deal with it. Take an aspirin, a hot bath and wash your hair. Color it, curl it, cut it, blow it dry. Do what every you have to do to look and feel better. Then curl up with a good book and a hot cup of tea. No television. No chocolate. No chips. Have some cole slaw an a stick of celery.

The following is an order from my council. I haven’t actually done it yet, but as soon as I post this I intend to follow the above instructions. My council is a group of my alternate personalities who are now taking charge of managing my life so I can relax and go with the flow. I don’t question them. They have a job to do.

Since I am on the quest of an extreme life makeover, I happened to run across this site and I read their main headline. Of course I laughed my head off for about fifteen minutes, at the boldness of their claim, but I kept on reading because they were selling just what I wanted.

The principles of the law of attraction is nothing new to me and they certainly go along with everything that has come to my attention about the nature of reality. The Power of Attraction is certainly at work in everything and everyone has a different way of approaching it. Everyone is coming up with their own approaches and opinions on how to make it work for them.

So If you are interested in this one, check out this site by clicking on the image of the book. This is an Ebook that can be downloaded instantly. This is what they are saying: “How to flood your life with riches, fulfill all of your hearts desires, and start living the life of your dreams in just six weeks.”

If it works its certainly well worth the money. (Personally, I believe this stuff really works, or I wouldn’t be sharing it.)

Today was a day I can only describe as rather average. It was not cold, yet not sunny. Nothing good, nothing uncomfortable. Is there such a thing as neutral energy? A resting point? I kept busy doing things, neither tired or energized. The day itself was just there and lingered like stale air with no breeze. I’m trying to think of a word to describe it. Quiet. It was a quiet day. But people were going about their daily routines as they always do.

Oh yes wait, there was one thing. I almost forgot about it. It was a funeral procession. It proceeded slowly down our street this morning. Leading the procession were men on horseback and a wagon drawn by four dapple gray horses, followed by cars traveling ever so slowly. Now that is a sight you won’t see in the city. Perhaps that is why it was such a quiet day. One of the horses was being lead and had no rider. It was a solemn quiet day.