The Queen’s Log

Do older woman really want to get involved in a relationship with a man? If so, why? Don’t male-female relationships tend to complicate most people’s lives or is that just something I believe because of what I experienced? Do we believe things because of our experiences or do we experience things because of our beliefs? Did the chicken come first, or was it the egg?

I have been questioning my own reasons for running from the idea of having any man in my life. Marriage seems to be too restrictive. Besides, it is still a contract between a man, a woman and the STATE. It has been my belief that most relationships between a man and a woman deteriorate to master-slave status inside of six months (or less.)

I gave up on any kind of relationship because I find it hard to believe that the “right” man (for me) even exists. If he does, what kind of man would he be? Let me imagine him.

He would be a man who loves his independence and would not want to be owned or to own anyone else. He would be more passionate about spiritual enlightenment than getting laid. He would be a focused happy confident person with integrity. He would know about the law of attraction and he would live by it, attracting health, wealth and abundance. He would truly know the difference between “being in love” and divine love. He would be fresh and fun and passionate. He would of course, worship the ground I walked on. He would be fun to be with but he would never smother me, take me for granted or boss me. He would be interesting, adventurous, considerate, and have good manners. Mostly he would be real and confident and he would act with love towards all.

In order to attract such a man, I would have to transform myself into the same type of person ~as like attracts like. That seems simple enough. It might prove an interesting experiment.

I don’t really feel lonely or that I need a man in my life. I am very happy with my life. Perhaps I should change my belief that the “right man” for me does not exist. I am now quite sure he does exist. I have heard that if you can imagine something, it must exist.

I have been reading the ebook “How to Be Irresistible to Men” in order to evaluate the product to see if I wanted to offer it for sale on my website and it has caused me to examine my own reasons for being so anti-relationship. It had been my intention to test the product’s effectiveness. As I read it, I realized that it did go well with the theme of my site which is about personal transformation. Then I realized that the techniques in the book might actually work. Before going any further, I had to stop and think about it. Do I really want to attract a man? Well, maybe…. but only the “right” man. Is that possible? Does he really exist? Could I really attract him? Well, I guess we shall see what happens… stay tuned in for the details.